1st july, 2007.....marks the completion of one year in this city called indore..a year has passed...and if i look back this was probably the most happening year of my personal life not really on a happy note....
it was 03:30 am on 1st july, 2006...when i stepped down from my lovely...cherished flat at 7th floor in mumbai to fly high in the sky with jet airways to land in this city...the heart was much much heavier than all the luggage put together...and the sentence " why are u leaving mumbai...when u love it so much...stay back" kept on haunting me all through and even till date....i was carrying with me meories of my lifetime and experience to become the foundation brick of successes ahead....
i was certainly moving ahead but what i was leaving behind was much more worth to stay back for...i still feel i traded for something which was ultimately of no imporatnce...and in turn i lost my real self...
8:20 i landed in this city which appeared as a stranger on that day as it does today....just in a matter of couple of hours life had changed...the city...the organization...the designation...colleagues..house....roommate.....and lots of unmaterialistic ones too....
I started again from "a"...as i did in mumbai and before that in pune and manier times even before that..but this time it was "I"...not we as it was Saj in mumbai...Ma-Pa in Pune....
the loneliness was not only phyiscal but was in mind too....how can it not be...when the ones who matter most to u decide not to walk with u.....it was not easy to walk...not even to crawl...but i survived only to loose someone who had been with me since the day i opened my eyes on this earth...i was (yes..now it is was...) his blue eyed girl....i not only learnt walking from him but also how to get up and going after stumbling...how to stand for what u believe in...and suddenly he was not there...yes...i had lost my grand pa...my bauji...
time kept moving...months were passing and salaries kept on rolling in the account...i could afford to buy most of things i once upon a time thought for...but i could not buy happiness...not even could get my laughter back...
It was the work which kept me going...and it still is...it was and is only high throughout....yes...in this short span of a year...i made a few friends for lifetime...whom i shall cherish for life...sometimes while looking back i feel sad about it all...but when i see them trying to make me smile..i think i still have reason and persons to smile for and smile with....
seasons changed and from rains to winters to spring...i had almost travelled entire north and west india..had been to many campuses...met lots of students...relived my college days with them...it was great to see the same happiness after getting placed...as it was at our times...
In the meantime I visited Mumbai a couple of times...and it recieved me with same graciousness as it had bid goodbye...sitting at nariman point and watching the vast sea.. late in the evening was seeming a very own thing...boarding a local train seemed to be so usual as i had never left it.....the roads to my home..were more familiar than the roads here...the gap of not being there for 6 months was bridged in less than 60 minutes....
Here was the city which they say give shelter to everyone and dreams of everyone get realized here...how true it was for me...i walked up in the city empty handed with only dreams and will power to make them true...it made me worth to make all of them true...i bid goodbye to the city with thousands of dreams and with the promise that I WILL COME BACK with all those dreams come true....ya...I WILL GO BACK but probably the later part of the promise will not be fulfilled...however it was good for me to keep myself engrosed in something which was giving me something to be happy for...something to look forward to...with all the broken dreams which were very close to my heart...i decided to start walking...walking atleast to cross that rough path and to come to comparatively smooth road where i can start dreaming again...and yes this time make THEM TRUE TOO...........the journey has well started and soon i will be there...i know....
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